I need my father now

Today was like one of the worst days of my lives.I slept for only 2 hours last night.I had to go to my university today for my project.It was fine in the morning except for the fact that my head was getting heavy and it was aching very badly.I reached home in the evening but couldn't get a chance to take rest.I called my in-laws in late evening and got to know that the surgery or what so ever of my father-in-law is not that simple.In fact it is kinda complicated and risky.As soon as i heard these words out of my mother-in-law's mouth,my head started banging.I felt as if someone has pierced a dagger into my chest.I felt a lot of pain.It sounds quite dramatic but it is the reality.I didn't know what to say at that moment.I completely blanked.

I called my fiancé after a while and revealed my feelings to him but he simply said that i should have faith in Allah.I texted him later on and told him that i want to come to the hospital at the time of surgery and gave him very logical reason that when my dad died,my mom and bro rushed to the nearby hospital but they left me at home.And my dad never returned.....

After discussing that with my fiancé,i started thinking about my dad.It made me cry a lot but i had no one to share my feelings at that time.I didn't want to panic my fiancé so i kept my feelings to myself.I kept on thinking and realized that my father-in-law is as much important to me as was my own father.The level of fear,love and affection is exactly the same.I don't know what other people think about this but all i know is that my feelings are sincere and i really really want to be with my abu.May Allah give my abu a very long life.I don't care about my life.I am willing to give away my life if thats what it takes to save him.All I know is that I am not strong enough to lose my father again and no one can understand my true feelings for my abu ji.I am not good in revealing my feelings verbally,writing is my only refuge through which i can express what i actually feel
.I want my abu to be healthy and fine and want to spend a lot of time with him.
Please Allah!!have mercy on me and make my abu fine.I need him

Rain

I don't like living in Pakistan.It is not because i don't love my country,its because i am more of a "LIVING IN COLD,RAINY PLACE" kind of person.I don't like heat or anything associated with it.I don't like the scorching heat of the sun.Rather i prefer rains and thunderstorms.I am most of the time in bad mood because of this summer heat.I am waiting for monsoon to arrive but its going to be a long wait.I hope it wouldn't end up like last year when there was very little rain falls in the monsoon season.

Thinking about rains and monsoons has reminded me of one such afternoon when i was out with my fiancé.We went to fortress because i wanted to buy some dvds.We were totally wet when we finally returned to the car because it was raining heavily.I was loving everything at that time.I was feeling kinda cold so he held my hand.The touch of his skin provide soothing warmth to my whole existence.I felt butterflies in my stomach.

Just looking at his face makes my face to glow as if this is some kind of teenage romance.When he is around,i forget everything around me.He is the most important part of my life.NO!!let me rephrase it, "HE IS MY LIFE." I can't wait to get married and spend the rest of my life with the person i love the most.

JEET K GEO

I had fun watching match last night.Pakistan has finally qualified for the semi finals...In your face everybody esp INDIA

I just hope that we made it to the finals as well and bring back the cup again

KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED

*DISAPPOINTMENT*

Sometimes your loved ones disappoint you so badly that you even forget what to say.I don't know what I am doing,why I am writing,what I have in my mind....The worst part is that I have no idea how to defend myself.Even when deep down in my heart,i know that i am on the right track,i find it really hard to tell this to the other person. I lack convincing power.What should i do if i have this annoying sensitive nature.How to change it????Sometimes i feel like complaining to my Lord that why has he made me this sensitive.WHY?????
I spent the entire night tossing and turning on my bed,I am not able to sleep,I am not able to eat,I am a mess right now....
I hate it when someone lie to me,and what i hate more is the invasion of any third person in my relationship but I am really disappointed this time
I don't need advices of that third person,Just let me be the way I am
I think I'm going into isolation,where i'll be alone,no one to talk to,no one to care for and no one to question because that is all i need right now. I am tired of the questions, i am tired of the fights and i am tired of myself....
I am really sorry that i disappoint you all the time.So i'll stay away from you and all other people around me.May be then all of you people will realize my importance!!!!!!!!!!!!

dulhan hum le jayenge

I'm totally in love with this song today.Its so shadi shadi =P
ab aa bhi ja mere Raja =P apni dulhan le jao

Uff teri ada

I am loving this song today.It made me dance today and then i felt some pain in my arm and leg and realized that i'm still bruised =P

Anyways I am vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv happy today.Everything seems so perfect right now.So this is my moment of pleasure and i am sure reading this post some time later will make me remind how happy i was and it will definitely make me smile.

STEREO LOVE

this song is my latest love these days.....